Over the last few months, but mostly the past few weeks and days, it felt like the universe was screaming at me. In my heart, I wasn’t really happy with my 9-5 job anymore. I loved the company, I loved what I did, the clients I worked with, and even for the most part, the people were cool. But I wasn’t happy and there was a ceiling to how successful I was allowed to be. I knew for a while that this job would be my last 9-5 job, and if I was going to make any moves, the moves would be for me; to build my dream.
“The universe was desperate and the universe was trying to throw everything at me including the kitchen sink so that I could clearly see the signs and get out. “
Over the last two months specifically, the universe was just throwing everything at me to leave; from sending me on a dream-like tour with Vans, to coming home to endless meetings and opportunities to collaborate in cycling and with The Bloom BMX, to also finding myself crying at work for the 4th time. The last sign was a moment at work that broke my heart, but I think that moment had to happen. The universe was desperate, and the universe was trying to throw everything at me including the kitchen sink so that I could clearly see the signs and get out.
The decision to leave came rather fast and easy after that last moment; with the opportunities that were coming my way, and the clear sign that my time was up, I submitted my two weeks a few days after. It was scary but it also felt so right. With all the feedback I received, the guidance, advice, and all the encouragement and stoke that came my way, it was hard to ignore the signs that I was doing the right thing.
“I had people believing in me more than I did in myself.“
Every moment has a lesson to be learned, and the lesson for me here was that I had to believe in myself, believe in my capabilities to be a freelancer, and know that I’ll be financially ok – and that worse case I can always fall back to another 9-5. I had people believing in me more than I did in myself and as someone who suffers from imposter syndrome, it was a real struggle to gain just an ounce of belief in myself during this chapter of my life. I knew that if I just put the same amount of hard work in for myself as I did for others, I knew the same level of success would be there, but at least it would be for me this time. I also recognized that a sacrifice had to be made in order to develop The Bloom BMX. The choice was pretty clear, I had to pick a path that filled my heart and soul and there was no way I was going to turn down these opportunities in BMX.
On the day that I quit, not even an hour later, I got a message from Angie Marino saying we were confirmed to cover FISE next month in France. Even though it was Angie who said it, I felt like it was also the universe saying “Let’s goooooo!“. I don’t think there could have been a clearer sign that good things were to come, that I definitely made the right decision to leave, and that it was time to turn to the next chapter of my life. Even as I was typing all of this, I’m getting emails from brands wanting to collab with The Bloom BMX – it’s just been nonstop since California. There are so many more lessons and travel stories to share, this is just the first but there are plenty more to come.
To learn more about The Bloom BMX and what we do, I recently had an opportunity to break that down with SDVoyager here: http://sdvoyager.com/interview/meet-beatrice-trang-of-international/